Finally. Self-Aware.


At exactly 11:34pm on the 8th of March, 2010, I finally became totally self-aware. I believe it to be like a dog who figured out that his shock collar finally ran out of batteries and he is free to roam around and roll in anything he wants to. And it only took an incredible amount of pain, misunderstandings, drunken forgetfulness, white lies for fear of being labeled something totally opposite of what is and anger. None of this is me. I was never raised to be this. But with this new found awareness comes the responsibility to be more proactive than reactive.

To be more proactive than reactive has not reached complete consciousness with me but I know I have switched gears by my subconscious actions. It’s a feeling and one I am familiar with. Much like the same as when I stopped being panicked when shot at but slow and methodical with calm and a weird peace. I wish there was a word for it. Back then I used to say it was “divine stupidity; commonly mistaken as courage”.  No, I think a real switching of gears happen without control and without objective knowledge. It just does.

So, with that being said, I am now going to tell you about my TA in the class  Neuroscience: Clinical and Behavioral Study. He has a neurological tick that causes him to make high pitch chirps every few seconds. It is mostly like a mild case of  Tourette’s. And I find it funny. Boy, I wish I didn’t. There has been so many times we would be studying his certain neuro disorder and he is in the back of the classroom trying to muffle his “YIP!” every few seconds. I do feel for the guy but irony is my kind of humor. I am now self-aware enough to know I am an incredible asshole.

So, I needed to get that off my chest. I always let you know what is on the noggin. Sometimes I feel the people who don’t know me at all, know me the best. Talk about irony! Waa ha ha ha!

A little something to keep you up at night

7 Comments

  1. What the f*ck? WHAT THE F*CK? I hate you times a million for posting that weird clown/kid/freak pic….I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  2. Do you ever worry about plagerism because that first paragraph would look devine on my Facebook page.

    Just sayin’

    Anyway… great blog. I especialy like your post about Greenacres, Wa. (;

    • Not at all! Plagerize away! I’m always shocked that people read this.
      Thanks for coming by!

  3. Aww the poor little girl. Looks like someone held up a mirror for her to look into. Talk about having a hard time sleeping, knowing that you’re the nightmare.

  4. As always, your insights make the internet a better place.

  5. ” Sometimes I feel the people who don’t know me at all, know me the best.” You’re so profound Will. How do I become self-aware. No, I being serious. Tell me one tip.

    • I would love too but I think it comes in waves because now I think I am Han Solo.


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